Happy New Year!

2011 eve is the awesome one.
i had alcohol and dance and also chit chat about life with those guys.
i admitted every shits that is inside me; its like a load i wanna get it off to them.
this is because they are the one for me in all my life.
they are the one who i can talk to most.
i never regret being a Johannian and knowing them in my life.
they are truely awesome.

i had to do what i gotta do that night.
express every shit out inside me.
and i totally did.
after the night, next morning is already new year.
i thought it was still 2010 until the sunlight shine on me.
it was so hot and the brightness of the sun made my day.
its like a fresh start all over again.
its like i've been given a chance.

whatever i said and happened that night, it meant to be kept in 2010.
screw it, and lets enjoy 2011.
to me, new year is not only a day. is not only the first day of the year.
i assume it as a whole week.
it made everything special.
i love all my family and friends.
they are always there for me.

i am looking foward and brimming in confidence to become a better person, man and Lionel.
i have this low confidence a few years back.
but each year, i told myself.
be confident, you're a man, do waht you have to do, don't care what people think, if they don't like you they can fuck off and you can enjoy ur life.
I should improve to be a better man and human.
Look around me, look for options, be prepared and be confident.

A teacher of mine in high school told me this last week.
"know alot more of them but do not be commited, enjoy life first"
i'll always remember her and the conversation.
i love her as a teacher and she's awesome.

I am who i am; always try to be a better person and myself.