Fever

i am having fever right now.
i mean couple of hours earlier.
i felt horrible.
but i'm feeling better now.

i have never been sick since that college camp about 2 months ago.
i've lost some important people in my life.
and now me getting sick.

honestly, i was terrified.
i mean i am.
i felt very weak, very suffering.
i was thinking the worst possible thing that could happen to me.
i am really scared to leave my love ones; family and friends.
i wonder was that how he felt before he passed.
because i really felt that.
i am scared to go and leave you guys behind.
it'll be horrible for you people.

well, my parents told me not to go class moro and go for the doc.
but i refused cuz i dont wanna miss any lesson.

maybe, just maybe i went through what he felt.
i bet he was much more worst than me.
its just that we should always cherish people around me.
they will always say that but do we really do it?
words speaks louder than actions, yeah that's what i thought.
after he's gone.
life really meant alot to me, so as people i love.
its glad that Sarveen come back purposely every 3 months from uk when he don't even need to.
we really made ourselves cherish and value ourselves in every way each time we meet.

anyway, my point is..
just value everyone we know.
i'm not gonna waste my life going through studies and aiming my goal in life.
what matters is enjoy with happiness inside you with people you love.