Monday, December 21, 2009

I love you

i love you..
been looking at our pics.. while listening to what a catch,donnie by fob...
at the same time..
i was touched and hurt and guilt and regrets in me..
all these will spurn me better in the future.. only if i do it and not just say it...
emotional unbalanced..
dont know what to say..
dont know what to do..
just want you to be happy..
you did enjoy today...
i like...
just wanna be better... be good... be great.. be the best...
i cant be the best... but... i'll try...again and again and again..
i had fun today... honestly... i love today... i really do...
i can feel my love heading towards ur heart...
its okay if i dont feel yours...
just want you to be happy.. that's all...
=D
and there you go..
you enjoyed!
its the nice thing to see.. =D
my life... i love you...
nvr goes down easily with my knees...
comes back up with the heart and better than before...
always push my knees to stand up...
never let my hand nor heart to fall down...
for you...


Saturday, December 19, 2009

pointless

everything was pointless..
lets start all over again..
i'll feel the pain..
dont worry..
happiness is with you..

Monday, November 30, 2009

haha

just a short one...
tomorrow im having accounts paper... shit!! i hate it!
im having backache... the part where i fractured my backbone...shit!
maybe sit too long... phobia already... damn!
i wish myself some luck for tomorrow's acc paper...
good luck lionel...
and others as well...
chao!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Don't Let Me Go

I can see your shadow lying in the moon light
I can feel your heartbeat playing on my right side
Every night I long for this, making up what I miss
I can hear you breathing, letting out a sad sigh
You tried so hard, to hide your scars
Always on your guard

Don't, Don't Let Me Go
Dont make me hold on when you're not
Don't, dont turn away
What can I say so you won't
No dont, Don't Let Me Go

I can see the skyline fading in the distance
Tears are coming down now, I'm trying just to make sence
I don't listen to the radio, just the engine and the road
I wonder if my words are making any difference
I dream and then It seems to end
But always comes again

Don't, Don't Let Me Go
Don't make me hold on when you're not
Don't turn away what can i say so you won't
No don't, Don't Let Me Go

I'm coming down to where you're standing
I need you now or you'll be watching me hit the ground
with the crashing in

Don't, Don't Let Me Go
Don't make me hold on when you're not
Don't, Don't turn away what can i say so you won't
No Don't, Don't Let Me Go
Don't Let Me Go
Don't Let Me Go

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

No self-esteem

no more self-esteem...
i mean sometimes i do but sometimes i dont...
spm's around the corner...
well... just have to tell myself no more self-esteem...
be the one who i really am...
show off what i am...
show off what i have...
speak up...
fight for all competitions...
do not give up...
always have believe trust and faith...
no one can take my heart away from her and im not gonna let go of her heart too...
love my family
love all my friends...
scout friends...
classmates...
school mates...
chinese'z...
indians...
malays...
other races... lol...
love u guys...
love my sweet heart ofcourse...

be myself as always as i am...
making fun of ppl...
care for them...
love them...
think of how they feel first before i do...
dont do bad stuff...
enjoy life....
never acted cool and will never do so infront of girls..... cuz its dumb and shit....
just have to be myself...

show off myself...
show off my capabilities to acheive something...
never say die spirit...
show my love to families relatives... chinese'z and Buddhism...
show of capabilities to keep sweetie's heart...
tell myself that im the one for her...and im the best in everthing for her...
love everyone like how i love my life...
but love my life first before loving others...
protect urself before protecting others...
do whats right for urself...
you have all the choices in the world...
choose the best choice and do whats right...
face your fears...
nothing is imposible...
dont give up on anything...
have fun...
enjoy life...
everything has its limits...
always have believe trust and faith in yourself...

dont be ego...... i learned that...cuz everone is ego in this world... so im just gonna be myself...
i am who i am...

i am Lionel Chooi Yue Mun...
Lionel Chooi basicly... lol... =D

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Campfire

well... right now im using Kim Foo's lap top to blog...
now its 3.50 in the morning... after yam cha with the boys in bukit bintang..
dont know why i dont feel sleepy.. but tired ofcuz...

It was a great night... very very good night...
were pretty nervours and mixed emotions tho... lol...
reached school at 415 after breakdown at museum telekom...
was very very nervours...but full of confident...
well... at 6... registration started...at that time i already sweating all over...
so we started around 750...
got up with speeches...Rajalingam officiated the campfire and did the fireball...
love the fireball.. thanks to Christy's council and all of us who helped prasanth...
the fireball was very very very superb awesome...
after that went on with mr lee's speech... he screwed up our agenda by roll calling each and every troop... argh!!
okay next... is my speech... damn... i didnt prepare anything.... i was like...
hey... good evening everyone here and there....our theme tonight is yesterday once again... whatever it is... u guys just have fun and have blast.... lol...
then slideshow... Bryan Chang purposely screwed up our slide... he just put in 20 seconds wording... damn... but at least he helped for the programme book... it was awesome...
after that... we moved on with games... suppose to be dance by the boyscouts...cuz they didnt have much time to prepare... so game went first... it was family chair... went pretty well tho...
we were damn panic cuz the agenda ran out of time... it was too fast... very too fast...
so after dance... we did interaction for 30 mins to fill up the time while rovers thought of some random quiz... haha... but it was cool tho...
after that was me doing the mc... kok huah was too panic...and gotta prepare for his live band...
they did it for 25 mins for 4 songs.. which is check yes juliet.. dear 'muneira'...21 guns and thunder... all 4 was awesome... next then is duet acting by ritesh and firdaus...i was the mc and coordinate the mexican wave tho... haha... was very cool... everyone understands it and laughed throughout ritesh and firdaus's act...
after that was games again which is love tunnel... coordinated by me and ritesh...
was pretty cool and everything was smooth tho...
so they prepared for RA...
everythign went fine... RA is the most important act just now...so we went on with RA...
everything was smooth... they took their time... did all sorts of stunts... and last after that was souvenirs presentation... i presented it... lol...
we started it with VI...
purposely salute longer so that they lai yeah.. lol...
did that to every troop tho...
at that moment i was very very superbly happy... untill now...
so then we packed up everything,.. went yam cha,, chill around... and untill now... blogging this... haha...now is 415 lu... kinda sleepy already... lol...
and another thing...
to my sweet heart... sorry about that friday... it was our 6th month anniversary.... we didnt even meet nor chat along the night....im really very very sorry....
just wanna tell u that... 6th months is a very very long time.... half a year already.. its very sweet...we shared knowledge and experience arguements and happiness together...
we faught here and there...but lets just forget about it... dont care... just enjoy and have fun with current time... wanan be happy with you at all times... even we know that someday somehow we'll argue.... lets just cherish the time being... dont wnana really lose u....
about not coming for my campfire... its okay... i understand...i also didnt want u to be alone...
seriously if u come also i wont even have 5 minutes with u... a minute can la... lol...
but anyway... u did supported me... not alot... but u did support...
u said everything will go well...and it did...
love you very much sweet heart....Nicola...5201314...

okay then... im done now... gonna pee... then sleep...
i had awesome night!

Last but not least... i'd like to thank everyone that attend this campfire... its around 400 plus...
wanna thank to my family for suppporting me in everything....
my council.... we did it... after 5 years we finally did it...
johannians... u guys made it... u guys came and made it happened...
rovers.. who helped the main performances which is fireball and RA...
and never thank CK Chan which talk cock most of the time....

gtg chao!
will upload photos later on...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Feeling uneasy

Today.. feeling restless...
lots of things going through my mind...
stressed with Bryan with the programme book...
campfire is just days away...
im getting nervouse....
hopefully everything will go well and nothing negative will happen...
i just dont wanna chat with anyone today...
i just wanna be alone... no one... and just me...
im very veyr very stressed out already....
i dont wanan think anymore...
just wanan sort out slideshow...preogramme book for my campfire and performance for my iu day....
this is getting hectic... from tomorrow onwards we gonna stayback everyday untill 6pm...
no more other stuff... just have to really prepare for the 18th July...
i just dont wanna talk to anyone today...
dont feel like talking... no mood...
guess i need friends in school to cheer up tho...
i need confidence from them in order to have confidence in myself...
i need something like... 'cmon Lionel... you can do it...'
but now i just no mood to do anything...
yesterday went CHS gathering...was cool...
pretty tired...
argued with my gf... dont know why also... maybe she's just cant chill for a little stuff... or maybe i cant do something as a bf as what she wanted...
well... was thinking of you whole day tho...
im very very tired already...
this whole week is just campfire and iu day is in my mind...
nothing else...
im really stressed out...

Please dont rain on this saturday...
hopefully everything will be done with confidence and everything goes well...
All the best...